enjoy the moments

I am not sure where to start to sum up my week, I really need to blog more often. We are busy and have so much that we can blog about. I am going to start with awww such an amazing day I had, on February 15th, I got to meet with 7 of my beautiful friends from my on line support group DailyStrength. Each of these woman have meant so much to me, these past 3 1/2 years and for most of us it was the first time we had received a real hug and not just encouraging words. It was such a blessed day. Bridget and I were able to surprise each of the ladies with their Molly Bears (excluding Tara and Cynthia whom already have their bears). Tara was such a life saver to be our San Diego driver! I wish I could put into words what it is like to get together with other Mommies that have been through losing their babies, God has brought each of us into one another's live through such heart break so we could build each other up, it is really amazing how women from Alabama, Colorado, and all over California, could form such a beautiful bond via the internet and come together!


The next wonderful thing of my week was getting to see The Fantastic's, mylove has spent weeks working on and preparing for his role, and to see it all come together was FANTASTIC, the kids and I enjoyed the performance. I am so glad giving up my evenings with Justin was worth while ;)




Susie turned 11 this week! Happy birthday to this wonderful girl. She is a blessing and a joy and I am so glad to have her as a sister in law!


Life, love, beauty. Don't forget to take time out of your day to enjoy it. Pull over and capture that beautiful rainbow, or sunset, or smell the roses that are growing, or listen to that music playing!

This is my valentines S.H.M.I.L.Y. for Justin Mylove. I wrote S.H.M.I.L.Y. on heart doilies, I picked fresh flowers from the yard and put them in a vase with candy hears, and last night(I haven't taken a photo yet) Galilee added food coloring into the water so the lily's are changing color to pink. Side note here lily's are the BEST flowers to grow, I don't water them or pay them any attention and every single month we get new ones growing!
My Sister in law, Sarah spent one of her afternoons this week mowing our lawn, AWESOME!! It was the first time she ever used a lawn mower I told her she can come by and use it any time, this would have been my favorite part of the week(totally great, thank you Sarah) but...


I got to join the Crews family at Bridget's ultra sound to find out if they are getting a boy or girl rainbow....it's a BOY Jason Anthony Crews. It was an amazing moment!

There are many other beautiful things that have made up my week, I am doing the march for babies for all of my children and in honor of my forever baby Esther Grace, I received a donation from a new friend of mine Sarah Mommy to Holden (they are doing such beautiful things in honor of his precious life, touching lives all over the world!holdenuganda), I got my hair did thanks Mom I enjoyed our time together, I had a very beautiful day at seaworld with Felicity and Quinn(funny story about that trip, but not now), I have bears calling my name so goodnight and many blessings to all!

Pia I took this photo for you in memory of Sam!

I would really like to blog right now, but I must leave to pick the kids up from school. It has been a very exciting week and I hope to share it all with you, so more to come later!

You've got your hands full

"You've got your hands full!", this statement irritates me. I was out with the kids today doing boring stuff like paying bills and buying toilet paper, we made 6 stops, and and EACH and EVERY place I went to at least 1 person told me, "You've got your hands full!". My kids were being very well behaved for the most part of the first 5 stops, so what, people have never seen a Mom with 4 kids in their lives before?! What drives me nuts is all I want to say right back to them is "I wish they were more full!", no one knows by just looking at me that I am missing a precious child, they just see me as "the lady that has too many kids". I also was asked twice today if I was their older sister, I guessed that would happen today though, I did wear a dinosaur shirt and I got some new shades at the dollar store LOL, that one doesn't bother me so much but really what is the point of asking, there is no follow up to this and people know full well these are my babies, they like to just point out the fact that yes I am a young mom, thanks I guess. Nope my hands aren't as full as they should be, thanks for pointing it out for the 10th time today, I got it!

Super... WHAT!?

Today Mylove and I had a super date day, we skipped watching the super bowl, so we could have time together. Thanks to my MIL and SIL they team worked watching all 4 kids. We started out our date by going to see the musical "Emma" based off of Jane Austen's book, that is playing at the Old Globe, in Balboa Park. It was a, well I am going to say my favorite musical I have seen, beautifully done. Then we walked through the park, ate a snow cone, and headed to the MIL's to feed Quinn and pick her up for the rest of our date day. We arrived just as half time started, eeek was that ummm disappointing!? I fed Quinn and she was doing so great and super happy that we decided that she could stay and we would pick all of the kids up at the end of our evening. We set out on our adventure to find some good eats... we drove past some nice little restaurants and NO ONE was eating, super bowl was taking over all life in our little world. So we ate at Red Lobster, yummy shrimp and cheesy bread and good conversation! I had a wonderful day with the love of my life and it's a good thing to take time to grow a relationship. Thanks Quinn for letting me have a day with Daddy.

Saturday is CAKE!

Well today wasn't really a piece of cake but I did get to make this fancy number for a sweet friend of mine that was hosting a DISCO for her friends 50th birthday bash. Justin has rehearsal from 9-3 today, it's Saturday so our house was full and I had this cake to bake. Plus I felt the need to go check out an Estate sale... with the kids, they did very well on our journey and we picked up a few good finds, Galilee got books, Owen a radio, Felicity got a old play phone, and I got an old Quaker Oats container, an old washboard, and an angel key chain for a grand total of $6. Justin got home and I had less than 2 hours to get my cake and cupcakes done and delivered, I got stressed, that got Justin stressed, kids were jumping rope in the house and fighting over which rope belonged to them, the back door was left open, Felicity was running around with no clothes on, Galilee's foot got hurt.... and as I was finished and leaving.. no the cake didn't fall apart this time... I looked around and the house was a MESS. So I left, Justin wondered if I would return lol, I was driving and there in the sky was a stunning sunset, and peace and quiet in the car, just what my soul needed. Then I drove back home and entered into my clean house, dishes were done, and Felicity even had clothes on.

Blessing others

Last night I wrote names in the sand @ la jolla coves maps.google.com, for some very dear friends, these people are inspiring me to have a refreshed out look on why we are here. Some of us are here to go with our own feet while others are here to be the support of those going out, what ever we are called to do we should do with love and joy and with our hearts. Bursting out from inside of me is the want to help others, I have always had this desire from the time I was just a little girl, I am not sure what this means, do I stay and support or do I GO. I don't want to stand in the way of God using me, and if I stay to support I know this role is just as big as going.

Psalm 98:4

Never Let Go Of Hope

One day you will see that it all has finally come together.

What you have always wished for has finally come to be.

You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself,
"How did I get through all of that?"

Just never let go of hope.

Just never quit dreaming.

And never let love depart from your life.

~ Jancarl Campi ~