Really Bad no good day

Have you ever had a day that just beats you up and crushes your heart? Yeah me too that was my day today. I am using this photo of my 9 year old on her very bad day. I want to put on some sunglasses, on lay on the slide, eat my grilled cheese sandwich, and cry my eyes out.

Was there one thing that made my day bad or sad nope: #1 Missing Child: started off with my dear friends little girl Emily's Heavenly 18th Birthday, my heart is so heavy for her.

#2 Messes: Yes I am a pretty relaxed Mom, I let some messes slide by, dare I say sometimes even encourage them,I don't like them all, but why let the stress rule my days...and nights. Chocolate fountain explosion, turned into chocolate facials and chocolate arm rubs are another story. Peanut butter on the walls, baby powder all over the room and living room, lip gloss and sunscreen on stuffed animals, clothes and in the hair are not ever my idea of fun.

#3 The wrong colors:I sent out a bear that were the wrong colors than requested, a request that was lost int he shuffle of my busy life. I got a very unhappy email explaining why everything about a bear I sent out was wrong. I offered my apologies and offered to fix the problems. I am hurt, I spend HOURS on each and every bear I make (75 bears last month) Unfortunately the only tutu in the colors she wants is my Esther Bears tutu, so I am sending her my very special tutu, I made a matching name bottle cap and a matching bow. This is daily what my home looks like, because I am dedicated to bringing comfort, but with that dedication there really does comes sacrifice. I still love, love, love the work I do, but I think I just need others to see my reality. I am spending over 40 hours a week making bears,taking photos, filling out paper work, mailing packages, taking and making phone calls, sending emails, managing a FANTASTIC team and facebook page, and supporting my fellow baby Loss Mommies. Here it is in the RAW.

#4 My Mistake: While out driving with the family today, I made a mistake and had my right turn signal on, I thought the freeway was the next right, but at the last second I noticed it was one block up. I quickly switched and put my left signal on before I turned, but it was too late for the driver behind me, I slowed down and let her pass, I waved a "I-AM-SO-SORRY" wave and she pulled into the next driveway...just to get behind me speed up honk and flip me off! UGH shocked is an understatement of how I felt, like this photo of sweet baby Owen.

Alright, it felt good to write this all out. I know I am blessed and loved and I know there was never a promise of an easy life. Romans 12:12 Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. My love to you and thank you for letting me vent my woes.