Mother's

T'was the night before mothers day and all through the house not a child was stirring not a peep or a sound. Some mothers might say, this is, yes the best part of the day, but many more mothers I know their hearts ache and their souls yearn to hear that pitter patter of dear sweet ones toes running down the hall and a tiny voice saying "mama I can't sleep, can you read me one more story?" Some are blessed with babies here that do just want one more story and an extra kiss goodnight, and some are blessed with being a Mommy to ones that not everyone is privileged to know or see. Those with Earthly angels hug them and kiss them extra tonight, for that is what I will do, but know that 1/5 of my heart flew away when my 3rd child was born into perfect glory. My heavenly angel I love you my dear. Happy Mother's Day to ALL and to ALL a BLESSED night.

5 things

I am blessed

I am writing this blog in response to Marybeth's blog she quoted this from a book
The Prescription for Contentment:
Never allow yourself to complain about anything-not even the weather.
Never picture yourself in any other circumstances or someplace else.
Never compare your lot with another's.
Never allow yourself to wish this or that had been otherwise.
Never dwell on tomorrow-remember that tomorrow is God's, not ours.

1. I live in San Diego and even in the middle of winter we have green grass and the warmth of the sun.
2. I am married to the love of my life, with whom I can be myself and he still loves me for me.
3. I have a computer and can afford to pay for some interweb connection.
4. I have darling children with beautiful giving hearts.
5. Jesus has giving his perfect life for all of us so we may live eternally in glory and if this is all I ever had in life it would be more than enough!

March

March is here, I am reading through the book of Proverbs for this month. I love doing this, I did this 11 years ago for the first time, and Proverbs 31 is my FAVORITE chapter of the bible. I have done 3 chapters thus far and I am getting wonderful messages from God out of each one, very refreshing! I read to my kids the first chapter and after I asked what they got out of it, "if we follow God and listen to him we will be safe". I love that I was reading to my kids and right there in chapter one was: 8 Listen, my son, to your father’s instruction
and do not forsake your mother’s teaching.
9 They are a garland to grace your head
and a chain to adorn your neck. The theme right now is wisdom and learning and listening here are a few of the verses that I am in love with right now
1:33 but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.
3:3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart
3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding
3:11-12 My son, do not despise the LORD’s discipline,
and do not resent his rebuke,
because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father the son he delights in.
I know this last verse seems like the least appealing and encouraging but I think it is what speaks to me the most.

LOVE

We are called to love above all else to L.O.V.E. we were created to love, and to be loved, to bring God glory, to love him, have him love us; to to have a relationship. Love it more than attraction, love is more than a feeling of butterflies. Love can be at times the most painful thing in your life, when love isn't loving back, when things aren't, just so. Love isn't a plan, and it isn't scripted, it can be messy.

If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

I was singing(I use this term very loosely)a made up song to Owen tonight, I love you like_____ loves______ (fill in the blanks) I love you like sunflowers love the sun I love you like frosting loves the cake and even in my silly song of love to my son there is a relationship where love is loving.

We are to love and to be loved!

enjoy the moments

I am not sure where to start to sum up my week, I really need to blog more often. We are busy and have so much that we can blog about. I am going to start with awww such an amazing day I had, on February 15th, I got to meet with 7 of my beautiful friends from my on line support group DailyStrength. Each of these woman have meant so much to me, these past 3 1/2 years and for most of us it was the first time we had received a real hug and not just encouraging words. It was such a blessed day. Bridget and I were able to surprise each of the ladies with their Molly Bears (excluding Tara and Cynthia whom already have their bears). Tara was such a life saver to be our San Diego driver! I wish I could put into words what it is like to get together with other Mommies that have been through losing their babies, God has brought each of us into one another's live through such heart break so we could build each other up, it is really amazing how women from Alabama, Colorado, and all over California, could form such a beautiful bond via the internet and come together!


The next wonderful thing of my week was getting to see The Fantastic's, mylove has spent weeks working on and preparing for his role, and to see it all come together was FANTASTIC, the kids and I enjoyed the performance. I am so glad giving up my evenings with Justin was worth while ;)




Susie turned 11 this week! Happy birthday to this wonderful girl. She is a blessing and a joy and I am so glad to have her as a sister in law!


Life, love, beauty. Don't forget to take time out of your day to enjoy it. Pull over and capture that beautiful rainbow, or sunset, or smell the roses that are growing, or listen to that music playing!

This is my valentines S.H.M.I.L.Y. for Justin Mylove. I wrote S.H.M.I.L.Y. on heart doilies, I picked fresh flowers from the yard and put them in a vase with candy hears, and last night(I haven't taken a photo yet) Galilee added food coloring into the water so the lily's are changing color to pink. Side note here lily's are the BEST flowers to grow, I don't water them or pay them any attention and every single month we get new ones growing!
My Sister in law, Sarah spent one of her afternoons this week mowing our lawn, AWESOME!! It was the first time she ever used a lawn mower I told her she can come by and use it any time, this would have been my favorite part of the week(totally great, thank you Sarah) but...


I got to join the Crews family at Bridget's ultra sound to find out if they are getting a boy or girl rainbow....it's a BOY Jason Anthony Crews. It was an amazing moment!

There are many other beautiful things that have made up my week, I am doing the march for babies for all of my children and in honor of my forever baby Esther Grace, I received a donation from a new friend of mine Sarah Mommy to Holden (they are doing such beautiful things in honor of his precious life, touching lives all over the world!holdenuganda), I got my hair did thanks Mom I enjoyed our time together, I had a very beautiful day at seaworld with Felicity and Quinn(funny story about that trip, but not now), I have bears calling my name so goodnight and many blessings to all!

Pia I took this photo for you in memory of Sam!

I would really like to blog right now, but I must leave to pick the kids up from school. It has been a very exciting week and I hope to share it all with you, so more to come later!